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Mother’s day 2010

wimmin — Mon, 10 May 2010 01:41:54 +0000

We had a very nice lunch at Mesa Ranch. I am suffering now from the chocloate cake. Not used to such rich food now!

Poetry

wimmin — Tue, 23 Mar 2010 01:33:06 +0000

Now that Dad has been gone 15 years, I thought I’d share one of my favorite sides of him. He was a poet, among the many things for which we all loved him. These are just a few that I kind of remember as I cannot find the originals….

Son, with so much living to do

How much truth should I pass on to you?

Shall I tell you of my fears

That increase with passing years?

Shall I tell you of the love that disappears?

Shall I tell you of the pain

That my life has been in vain

Shall I tell you of the nights that end in tears?

Son, with so much living to do

How much truth should I pass on to you?

I will tell you of the joy

Just to know a little boy

I will tell you of the value of a friend

And this, most of all, my beloved son

I will tell you of a love that never ends

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Be natural, wise

As you can be, my daughter

Let my name be in your flesh

I gave you in the act of loving your mother.

All your days, her ways,

The woman in you

The way you came,

The days of waiting…

Be natural, daughter,

Wise, as you can be

Let the rhetoric stay with me,

Your father.

Let me now talk about it

Saving you

Such vicious self-exposure.

Larry Bales, 1976

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Had they known then the depths of pain they’d endure
Night after lonely night, stretching into the future
They might have stopped at the moment of departure.

Yet which of us, in the grasp of unyielding love
Stops to think how long a moment can be
When that love is gone and who can really see
How empty life can be when emptied of love?

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I hope I picked up a little of his talent. Here are a couple of mine.

I am an iceberg
in the cold, dark sea

I am an alabaster dove
soaring innocent and free

I am a star, a diamond
beckoning in the night

I am a tiny dewdrop
glistening brave and bright

I am a prairie fire
smoldering in the sod

I am an idea
in the mind of God

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Where are you hid from me, beloved one
That I am seeking through the lonely world
A wanderer, on my way home to you?
Dark is the night, and perilous the road
At many a breast in longing have I leaned
At many a wayside worshiped
And my heart is tired
From long traveling

Perhaps, in centuries to come,
You wait for me
And are as yet, an iris by the stream,
Lifting her single blossom
Or the soft, tremulous haze upon the hills
And we have missed each other
If this should be
I say, if this should be,
Then let this song reach to the verge of doom
To find you where you are, my lonely one
Telling of one on a hopeless quest
How, in the dark of time,
She lost her way

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I no longer have pity for myself

Nor can I express my torment of silence

All the words I had to say have become stars

An Icarus tries to rise as high as each of my eyes

And my spirit like a sun-god flames in the space between

What have I done to the tyrannical beasts of mind

At one time the dead came back to haunt me

And I hoped for the end of the world

But mine arrived whistling like a hurricane, without warning

I have had the courage to look back

At the corpses of my days

Which lay strewn in my path, and I mourn them

But I will set them quietly in their graves at long last

And begin to explore worlds outside myself

I feel the cool air brushing against my face

As I fling open the door and begin a new adventure

More weight loss

wimmin — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 03:42:56 +0000

I have been hesitant to post these…

wimmin — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 13:43:34 +0000

But try to ignore the devil jumping into me pic front side, LOL. As of this weekend I have lost 48lbs. Still a long way to go but I will get there!!!

Before:

After:

Before:

After:

Colt McCoy breaks record – and I was there!

wimmin — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 12:47:18 +0000

I went to the UT – Kansas game last night – last night at home for Seniors McCoy and Jordan Shipley. My uncle has ass-kicking seats as he was a letterman in the 50’s.

It was so great to see Colt celebrate! He fired off the cannon, Old Smokey, banged Big Bertha 3x and made his way around the track touching everyone’s hands. What an emotional night! Here are some of Colt and Shipley, along with some of the pageantry of UT football.

Colt warms up:

Colt fires!

Shipley warms up:

The Showband of the Southwest:

The Texas Flag:

Seniors recognized:

Bevo:

Texas flags:

Here come the Horns!

Colt directs a play:

Looking for a receiver:

Colt throws:

The tower lit orange after we kicked the shit out of them:

Say hello…

wimmin — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 12:17:38 +0000

to the new Network Design Engineer II at Unisys! Thank you God I found a job with a small raise ten minutes from my house in this economy!!!!!!

God I wish I could sleep

wimmin — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 10:32:11 +0000

I had a dream earlier tonight that mom rose out of her coffin and said she isn’t going to live long. It totally freaked me out and I called David who reassured me. I haven’t gone back to sleep yet. The last few days I’ve gotten up at 4:45. I’m sure the time change is not helping. There is so much I need to write re: Mom but it just seems overwhelming right now. I will soon.

Busy, busy

wimmin — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:27:39 +0000

Again, I have not written in awhile. It has been pretty crazy over here as I’m sure you can imagine. I had to move all of my sites off of my friend’s server and that migration took about a week (this is very slow in IT).

And then there’s Mom. She has surprised us all by being so amenable to moving to Assisted Living. We found a beautiful place called Heartland Health Care which is very close to David. It has a bright and cheery atmosphere, the people are cool, there is a wonderful rehab center, and her room has a door out to the courtyard so she can put a table and some chairs out there.

Yesterday, Mom’s friend from childhood, Emaly, went to the place with us. She used to be an architect so she took measurements and laid out all of the furniture for us, then came home and tagged all the furniture that’s going for the movers. There is an entire floorplan, to scale. It was an amazing thing for her to do, and Emaly, if you are reading, we thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all of your help these past months.

We have begun packing, but Mom wants to take everything as I’m sure any of us would in her position. So we didn’t get much done yesterday. David is bringing boxes at 10 today and we have a very busy day. We have to sort through all of her clothes and write her name in them as well as empty all of the drawers of the pieces Mom is taking. Most of this is paperwork and mementos so this is going to be difficult. Fortunately, Sissy (Mom’s caretaker) is coming over to help us. Wish us luck!

I will update more as soon as I can. I have several recruiters interested in me in Austin, so we’ll see how that works out.

Not a very good week :(

wimmin — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 00:52:00 +0000

Last week, I was rear-ended by a very mean man who cussed me up one side and down the other. He hit me so hard his air-bag deployed! I stayed in the car and dialed 911 while he continued to scream at me. My back was really hurting me the next couple of days so I got it checked out. Fortunately, the insurance company settled with me as it was $415! I suppose I will get my truck fixed this week sometime.

I went to the dentist today and because of a screw-up by the endodontist in GA it has absessed and needs to come out. Fun. I guess I will have Mom’s caretaker take me to get it out as I’m certainly not going to be awake when that happens.

I had one interview with a bank, but what the recruiter told me they wanted and what they actually wanted were two different things. Sigh. I was really hoping that would come through.

I hit a wall with Mom this weekend. I just can’t do as much as I’ve been doing anymore. I am so burned out. David says he is going to step up to the plate for awhile. I tried to hibernate yesterday and she called and called. I finally just turned the phone off. Called this morning and got griped out for not picking up. Something has got to give soon. They need to find out what is causing these seizures and stop them because they just can’t continue like this. Sorry for the downer post, but that’s what’s going on.

Another letter of recommendation

wimmin — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:00:17 +0000

Just got this from the Director of my department. I was pretty shocked, but I’ll take it!

September 8, 2009

To Whom It May Concern:

This letter is to confirm that Stacy Bales was an employee at PEER 1 in a full time position of Senior System Administrator. During this time, I was her Director and saw first hand the experience and knowledge she possesses.

During her employment and association with me, Stacy has been a strong technical leader in a variety of Technical Support and Customer Service departments in two separate product lines. For the past few years, Stacy’s focus has been on troubleshooting highly technical issues. In all cases Stacy has exhibited above ordinary product knowledge and excellent technical skills.

Stacy is also extremely reliable and responsible and can be counted on to come through in difficult situations. She gets along well with members of our work force in positions at all levels in the company. Stacy has made contributions to the success of Peer 1.

It is with sincere enthusiasm that I recommend Stacy Bales to anyone looking for a talented individual, who is very reliable, with excellent experience, is a team player, and has a strong proven track record in technical troubleshooting.

Sincerely,

Brian Daffern

Director of Support

PEER 1